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melissa shook

Caught on Memory, Art Students League, 1957

A blind salmon swimming 
after my older brother,
I pluck a name from the catalogue.
George Grosz. I know enough
to know he’s famous,
but not for what. And from Germany,
soon to repatriate. Gill hooked. First 
day of  class, stationed by the door, 
newsprint pad propped against easel,
I gasp as the male nude strikes   
two-minute poses. Legs wide, calf muscles
taut, arms stretched overhead.
Leaning left, fingers spread. 
My charcoal breaks.
Five poses, ten, warm-up 
for a long study 
of his lean buttocks, the black 
stool on which he rests one heel.   
A group clusters, teacher hidden, 
words inaudible, it swarms 
as he moves to another 
drawing, coming closer until
the small man, arm lifted to correct 
foreshortening, thick marks on a timid sketch,
is revealed. He catches my eyes,
stares, unblinking. 
It’s hours 
before he looks away
and I grab my tablet, leave 
the room, never to return.  

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